Is it ok to fancy someone when you have a five year age difference in between? Its a whole half decade of hit singles, trends, hairstyles, history, tv dramas , drug of choice and lingo apart! Five years don't seem that long. But give it a moment worth of thought and you realize in reality, it is. You're on a whole different level.
I watched him fall asleep. I watched him anxiously deal with that pimple (which appeared overnight) in the mirror the next morning. I watched him scribble rebellious writings on the classroom desk. I watched him laugh with his friends. With his young girl friends. I see young blushing love blooming into something beautiful and it makes my heart ache. I may just be feeling more of a maternal love towards him. I'm no pedophile nor a raving nympho. He's just adorable. Red lips.Hazel eyes. He loves his lips and isn't shy to say it but it's his eyes that hold my interest. Something deep in there, something I can't seem to decipher, something young and foolish, passionate and curious. But he's barely 17 and I'm not getting any younger. For the first time, I feel the previously un-thought about age factor creeping in. Before I know it..lo and behold..right there will be my first line of wrinkle!
I will let him be. I will gather my dignity acquired with age and time, forgotten in seconds. I will move on to my cup of tea. Meanwhile, living every single moment of this life. People tend to realize the importance of life and time, with near death experiences. I just realized the importance of mine while taking in the beauty of youthfulness.
OR .........This whole thing might just have been the slow, dangerous effects of boredom! That is actually more likely:). Boredom is a dangerous disease. It's contagious. It's destructful. It's discreet and it kills. So all ye fellow sufferers...i'll be seeing you in all the burning glory of hell---
It's au revior and not goodbye!(*o*)zzzz
PS- will be posting more often than neseccary. All I gotta do right now anyway is be a bum around town for the next month or so. haha. the good life?? think again!
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3 comments:
lol@gather my dignity!
rite! u will gather ur dignity and move to ur cup of tea just after u put him in ur crush list!! lolz...dont worry girl...u r as old as u feel!:)
from aditi...hehe missed my name there!
lolz.. you make urself sound like ur 30smth.. jeez girl.. dont do this to urself!!
life is a roller coaster.. and these are some of the most unforgettable awesome loops!
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